In my painting, the Biblical tale of Saint John's Beheading serves as a symbolic anchor, resonating with themes of unwavering conviction and martyrdom. Drawing parallels between the saint's steadfast principles and the artist's self-mythologized existence, I infuse the canvas with an atmosphere of regret and anxiety. Vibrant hues and a fractured surface diverge from traditional solemnity, instead portraying inner turmoil through intense colors and fragmented visuals. This interplay symbolizes the complex emotional landscape, reflecting the internal struggles shared by both martyr and artist.